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03 February 2006 @ 01:33 am

After you die...

After death, you will become an enraged poltergeist. You will choose not to follow the light, but instead torment whoever happens to co-exist in the same space as you. Your anger will never diminish, but you will find solace in destroying expensive china.

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Current Music: Type O Negative - black no. 1
27 January 2006 @ 01:14 pm
There's nothing wrong with me, i've known this for a long time. There was a time when thoses i love would have me belive i was less. I think they feared how great i could i been. i know now i'm about average.

physicaly i'm not a model but i damn well should be. and mentaly i think i'm prety stable. or so i lie to myself. Slightly depressive at times i guess, but mostly when i'm left to my own devices.

what really gets me down, and i mean morbidly depressed is how no matter how good i know i am i'll never match with anyone's ideal so well as they will never leave me.

so the only thing i want to change is the only one i cant. i cant stop being myself, and as much as i want to become Peter Steele i never will.

I may look like him one day but i wont be him. and therein is my depression,
the immutable self.

if (i reread this entry) > one day
     i'll probably snarl and say "Yarrr, thar be only one love 'fer me and she's the sea."

if (i) = die
    i = gawddamn hope it's in battle.

livejournal C
/oh the geek
//slashy slashy
01 January 2006 @ 06:46 pm

01 January 2006 @ 02:38 pm
Ah first post of 2006, a review of the past year is definatly not a good idea. This year, if i gave it a points raiting would be somewhere under the average. But as a whole over the year i think i've been slipping in a downwards spiral. and so have the years. the older i get the more cool clothes i have but also the more awful and unhappy life for me gets. If it wasent for Sterling keeping my hear screwed on straight i'd have lost it a while ago.

And now that i reach that age where most if not all my friends have their own places, jobs and lives that seem far better and more intresting than mine, i question what i want. Seems to me like i'm just a boy, running arround in a circle.

And now i have to go find a new job, fucking market fresh went under. i guess it'll force me to try harder and maybe this time i'll apply to jobs in my field.

where does an electronics engineering dropout/bilingual-certified-computer tech get a job?
30 December 2005 @ 04:35 am
dont look under the cut
I love artCollapse )
been partyin it up at Sterling for days now, dont pass go, dont go home. extreme marathon style.
26 December 2005 @ 01:22 pm
Xmas was t3h good. now i need to figure out how much cash i have and see if i can buy a new video card. meh mayve not now.
22 December 2005 @ 01:07 am
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

Moonspell - Rapaces
Moonspell - Ateagina
Moonspell - Vampiria
Voltaire - Graveyard Picnic
Switchblade Symphony - Gutter Glitter
The Kovenant - In The Name Of The Future
The Kovenant - New World Order
Inkubus Sukkubus - Belladonna & Aconite
Brian Tyler & Klaus Badelt - Constantine End Titles

I tag, enydona , hylianrae (if you even read this), ironstar , palomita

Obey me.
12 December 2005 @ 03:55 pm
Not that i really really dont have anything to do i'm just being lazy and complaning about it.
har har.

I'm working at 17:00 and beacause of the fucking christmas shopping now in season stores are open uintill 23:00. rediculous.

tomorow i'll make a long over due apearance at Z, which i belive is good. but i know it'll end up like it always has sitting in a chair somewhere drinking my beer and noone to talk to.
bah, maybe i'll end up just getting really messed up and just dancing the whole night. havent gone dancing on that floor in a while and i have the urge.

there's alot of friend i have not seen in a long time and i want to go spend time with each and everyone of them. if that's even possible anymore.

piercing envy has also taken me over and i need new holes. hehe dirty. anyways im not sure what i want but it's got something to do with getting an industrial, ro amybe that and something else. suggestions are welcome.
07 December 2005 @ 09:34 am
I failed Semiconductors.
it's not the end of the world sure i know that. but it sure is a shame.
Traveling is up there in the list of things to get going on and te best idea came from my sis who mentioned working as a techie or something on a cruise ship.

i guess time will tell.
06 December 2005 @ 12:09 am
i hate history, i hate the past.
why should my past obliterate my future.
i guess that's the nature of linear time, no backsies. no do-overs. no agains.

what i really want for crhistmas is a girlfriend. In the famous word of Queen, somebody find me somebody to love.
beacause the one i love cannot love me back.

so this is the end of the semester and this is what it all comes down to, will i cut it or will i be cut. if i dont make it this semester, it very well might change my life. if i make it i stay in school and maybe get my degree stay home a little longer, if i fail, i do what? stay at home for ever, get a job and die playing videogames in my basement. or do i pick up my crap put it all in a bag, sell all that can be sold and jet. leaving behind the only thing i ever trully wanted more than anything else.

well it all goes down tomorow.
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